Monday, November 24, 2008

Friends A'la Carte.

Friends are like a dish of meat, although great on its own needs some mashed tators to go with it. In this case you may love your friend, but they usually have a quirky litle sidekick that tags along with them.. You love your friend you love thiers and it makes for a delicious combination.

Also a friendship is like a fine wine, its ages gracefully with time... The longer your friend's stand by you the closer you are and the better you know each other, I have known Dan for 12 years and man I would take a bullet for that sorry son-o-gun lol, luv ya buddy.

Today, the wife and the baby and I drove our happy lil'butts down to Sherman. Her second job site is closing down and so the workers all decided to meet and take their spouses down to the Olive Garden for a final dinner like.

By the way, dont follow her boss on the road!! She took an entrance at like 50MPH and me never having used this entrance plus its darker than the sky during the eclipse, or when a big guy bends over! anyway, so she shoots onto HW82 at 50mph, I have never used this ramp before and not to mention... I CANT SEE IT! so we hit the ramp about the same speed trying no to loose her as we have NO idea of where we are going lol. She zooms onto it fine, but its as narrow as a matchstick and with ditches either side, man did we bounce around taking on that Ramp, thankfully to my Extreme driving skills in hazardous situations I managed to keep the car straight lol scarey but fun.

Anyway, we got there and sat down for our dinner, well ther ewas a slight delay cos Greg, Rachels significant and apparently very sexually active, other was running late as he had to drop his kids off at his ex's house.

So we waited a little, but that still eft a lot of time for good convo.

It was myself, my wife Misty, her friends Becky and Suzan, Rachel and Greg.. With the kids of course, Kate and Mikey belong to Rachel, and we had Kasey with us, she was soo good and pulls the funniest faces when you give her lemons...

It was a great time, i mean you know when something significant like and 'end of an era' dinner comes about I mean there are no holds barred in such situations I mean really. you let it all out, the jokes, the memories and the emotions and all the sexual jokes you have to tell about your Boss (Rachel), meeting new people is always good too.

And it does not have to end there I mean really you should always make it like an annual things its great. Its also kinda saddening when you think, one of the best times of your life with people could be the last time you are together. Really you must make it a good time, cos it could be your last memory of them.

Well not really much about this topic I can say that you dont already know, its just like, well I dunno I just feel its good to share my feelings and remind everyone that hey, your friends.. No matter what if they are your true friend you will never forget them

Meh there is nothing else I can say, I love my friends to the end of my 1000 year life span, lol I know your thinking what the hell is he on about.. I keep telling myself I will live 100 years.. hoping that you know, maybe I willl :p

Anyway guys. thanks for reading..

Always,

Phoenix

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Parting is such Un-sweet Sorrow!

Whoever said parting is such sweet sorrow is a bloody JERK!

Well ok, here is the story, you think I was really going to leave you with that one opening line!! Psht you should know me better by now.

Well anyway heres the scoop!

As you may or may not remember, depending on when you started reading my blogs, that we had about 10 cats.

Allow me to re-iterate the list:

Scooter
Pan
Midnight
Scrappy
Rascal
Spot
Mauzer
Hightower
Thomas O'Malley
Silver

Silver is actually a new addition to the group, he had to be rescued from Wal-Mart. But only to released again I affraid..

My Schindlers lists consists of, Scooter, Pan, Midnight, Mauzer, and Hightower. All cats nots mentioned in this list have been released... We would have rather had given them homes... But no one wants cats around here and it would cost $100 to take them to a shelter which we do not have!!!

I mean jeeze seeing the look on Misty's face when we dropped them off, which by the way was a nice open field away from roads and we dropped some food off with them, broke my heart.

I loved tose cats too, but I felt i dare not show it otherwsie she might have broken down... I needed to be strong for her or so I felt. Was that wrong of me?

Not the whol cat dropping off thing. I know that was wrong, but when it comes to feeding my family or the cats, I choose the family, wife and baby. I barely eat as it is, like one meal every two days...

Thats not the end of it, we need to say goodbye to some of the dogs too, that we also love. Again the animal shelter would charge $20 a head for the dogs and we have five we wanna take to the shelter thats $100 again... Also the shelter is full, so we would pay them there money and they would just give them to animal control and have them put down probably. We know a nice place out near the country that we think they would enjoy, nice big field to run around in and plenty of other little animals to hunt... Still breaks my heart to have to let them go.

There is nothing sweet about this, but in all honesty we brought this upon ourselves, took in to many animals (all of these are strays by the way) before we were ready or had the money to support them... So we got attached only to find ourselves having to say goodbye.

This SUCKS!!

Moral of the story: Dont exceed your limit, although your heart may be huge and can support many animals with love, if your pocket is too thin, you may have to break your heart in order to survive.


Alway's.

Phoenix

Friday, November 21, 2008

"... To a little bit of Chicken Fried"

Thats right, chicken fried!!

Ya know.. Since mvoing to Texas I have been introduced to country music and sense of living and family that you can only get from Texas..

Now I though I knew close families in the Uk but being here and listening to the music and seeing some people you really get an appreciate for tradion that Texas has. Ok there are some things that I dont quite follow about Texas and obviously every family has its problems.

but I have found myself playing over and over again the Zac Brown Band Chicken Fried video on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4ujS1er1r0 <--- there is the link if you are interested And if you dont wanna listen to it, thats fine. The song just talks about family and love and chicken fried :) It just gives out a kind of living that would sem pictouresque for many people, i would love to get a place and some land out in the country for my kids to grow. Field for them to play in, away from all the noise and pollution of the cities, and away from all the a@$holes you find in them aswell :)

It am listening to the song right now, again!! And on occasion I pick up Kasey and dance with her to the song and sing it to her, she sings back in that cooey way 10 months old do :)

I dunno the song fits my category of family living and I like it. Just thought I would take a moment to share it with you :)

Thanks for reading :)

Forever,
Phoenix

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Chores.... Aint all that bad when they are all you have!

Have you ever noticed how my blogs always seem to like have an exclaimation mark at the end of the title! <---- Like that one !!! See, oh crap theres more! Help me I can't stop. Oh well apparently I can when I decide not to use that button anymore, amazing the things your mind can do really.

Thus this topic. I hate chore's and I doubt, unless your name is Monica Gheller-Bing, that you like them either. However I have found that when they are all that you have left to keep you busy they can be quite fun.

But again I have to will myself to do them cos I am by nature a lazy git!

I try not to be, but I have not been taking very good care of myself lately and thusI have become lazy I used to go running every now and then but being a full time dad kinda does not give me much of a chance. Cos 'sides being a Dad I am a chauffuer or however you spell it, Maid.. Oh blow it I have posted all that before, don't need to bore you with it all again.

I have no real complaints about what I have to and not to do. Its just life ya'know sometimes you just think it aint good enough to do, but plenty good enough to rant about eh!

As usual its dumb-ass thirty in the morning and so I am running on half my normal stupidity but ok let's try anyway. I am trying to keep an I on my spelling today aswell, see if I can get atleast one complete post out without messing up lol.

But Chores when they are all you have become your lifes work so to speak. They keep you busy, take your mind of things and generally just set a tempo for your day. If your young right now and living with mom and dad and have got to do your chores or no chocolate pudding after dinner tonight, well let me tell you now, GET USED TO IT!

Because I know we dream of the time when we dont have to do our own chores anymore like our parents who made us do it, but believe me its ten times worse and then and usually only then do you understand why your parents made you do it all the bleedin' time.

I wish I had been made to do more work around the house when i was younger because when I got my own place, I was not ready for maitaining it. Doing dishes, cleaning the living room scrubbing the toilet, dealing with blocked up pipes (yeah thats always good fun!). But now I have been living in my own place and have to take care of such things I am learning the appreciation my parents should have recieved from me when they made me do chores.

"Hey mum thanks for forcing me to wash the dishes, I know I will be greatful inthe future!" Yeah Effing right lol. I hate it just as much now as I did back then, but I now understand why it needs done. I do not like mess but I have a lot of it to deal with and really, single moms out there!! Power to ya. You guys are like modern superwomen :)

single Dads out there that cope, all the power to you guys too and even those who are together, being parents and maintaining a good household is a lengthy trial and error process that never really ends. These are the times I wish I was OCD like Monk. Even though I really dont wanna be OCD thats just crazy. No offense to OCD people, love you all really, just not for me :)

As usual I am sidetracked and off th point.

Do your chores, you may hate it while doing them but you will appreciate your hard working effor when they are all done :)

Meh, its 1:44 AM and I have a website to work on... Bleh.

Thanks for reading and goodnight ya'll

Forever,
Pheonix

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

"Thats what friend's do"

There could not be any better a statement.

Now I cannot quote any specific person for that line, well I could but that would be everyone that has ever called themselves a friend of someone, which is truly inidicative of a true friend. Trust me they can be damned hard to come by.

But there are so many varieties of friends, even true friends, some of which you just hang out with cos they are great and funny and just awesome till the end, ad would help you out no matter what but you could not confide in them as much as you would say your other friend, one whome you can just tell anything and un-questionably trust them to keep your word, even more than you would a doctor.

I have two such friends, my best freind of 12 years and another deeply close friend that I met when I moved here to Texas. I shall not reveal their names just because they are my friends and I dont want anyone to steal them from me!! I know really selfish right? Well you would do the same in my possition.. Trust me.

Nor will I go into the dirty details lol, I know what the hell is the point in reading this post your thinking?! Well I am kinda hoping you would like, take the time, stop and think about who your friends are and what they mean to you.

My friend of 12 years i would do anything for, kill die kick in the shin cos he was a completel dumbass... You name it I would do it. But there are things about myself that I cannot tell him, or my wife for that matter (oh F.Y.I she does not know about this blog and I am kinda hoping to keep it that way. Not that I dont love her or anything god I would give my soul for her everyday of the week and twice on sunday! But this is my private spot, se gets all the real juicy stuff though :p) about real personnal issues. Things that I have kept secret since before I knew any of them, the age of ten to be precise, and then some.

The one friend that I said I could tell those things, well that the other kind of the Hienz 57 variety friend I have. I tell that friend stuff and they tell me stuff but I dont know its just a big trust, honesty from the start, as it is with all of my close friends and my wife. I dont know how to explain in and that in itself is the landmark of this friendship.

Friends are very important ya'know, they are your connection to the world outside your own, they are your anchors, your life jackets and strength.

Show me someone who acomplished great things that never said he didnt owe anything to his friends, Julius Ceaser had Marcus Brutus, his right hand man and solid companion. And I am sure you all also know that Brutus was a key member in th eplot to kill Ceaser, that just brings me to my word of caution: Be sure you know who your real friends are.

I have many buddies, but I only have 2 close friends, 3 if you include my wife. Now I know that may sound offensive, but she is my wife and therefore has a category all to herself, she is my life, my love and my soulmate and there is no one on the face of the earth who could replace her, short of Anne Hathaway!! Joking of course.

Look its 2:37 AM and I am writing, ok typing, this on 2 out of 4 cylinders, which is a lot for me on a good day really. So if none of this is making any sense what-so-ever then ok, sorry I wasted your time.

The simplification is this, think! You have friends, discover who they are. Stand by them and see if they stand by you. Save them and hope they would return the favor.

You have to take a chance in order to give one.To trust someone is to give them the power to kill you and hope they dont use it, same definition can be applied to love. Infact I am sure I heard it somewhere else.

Like here I am taking the chance by writing all these deep down and personal thoughts here in the hands of complete strangers to me. I am a very trusting person, good thing and a bad thing, and I love making friends. Some things will never make it on here but my friends, one or all will know it. They are my time capsules should I pass on they will remember me and tell tales of me to their friends and families as I would of them.

They have become appart of me and trust their lives to me and I do to them, thats what friend's do.

Pheonix